Because life
never stops teaching.

Journaling for awareness. Growing for life.

Being Present

Two weeks ago Monday, after the rigmarole of getting up and out in the morning—breakfast, school drop offs, a quick grocery run, and so forth—I took fifteen minutes to enjoy my cup of tea in the little garden bed in front of my house. I sat on the grass breathing in the steam from my mug and clearing my head of its busy thinking. There I noticed a little pink rose peeking out from under some heartier salvia branches. It was the first bloom on the young plant, tilting its head into the light. I was inclined to whisper, I see you, the way one might to a child playing peekaboo, but instead I just marveled at the quiet miracle …

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 I had my engagement ring cleaned recently. There seemed to be some residual play dough and lotion stuck in between the prongs. The jeweler was sweet, complimenting the setting and asking about how my husband had proposed sixteen years ago. She casually noticed a little flaw in the diamond and told me that if I ever intended to replace it, they could fit a new diamond into my existing setting. I smiled politely and bit back the urge to explain why that wouldn’t be necessary. My husband bought my ring at age twenty-three with his savings, and I couldn’t imagine ever replacing it. The moment felt similar to the time I had walked into the dermatologist for some hydrating cream and walked out …

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When the New Year began, I put away all my holiday decorations, took a deep breath, and thought, now things will calm down. But suddenly there were birthdays to celebrate, doctors to see, school variety show acts to coordinate, Girl Scout Cookies to help sell, home projects to complete, and other excitement to instigate. Life is full… wonderful.

A morning last month, Brennan (now four and a half) asked me if I’d play trucks with him—one of his favorite things to do. At the time I was in the middle of making lunch and cleaning out the refrigerator. “I can’t right now; maybe in just a little bit,” I told him, “Why don’t you help me make lunch.” But by the …

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We’ve been thinking about moving – a move that we hope would be one of the last. I’ve spent a few months watching the market, checking listings daily and visiting several homes. But inventory is low and the cost of homes is high (in southern California), so it’s a search that has caused a bit of stress. What is more, I have been so excited about the future that once I was halfway into this process I realized I’d taken a step out of the present. I was living in my lovely little home on my lovely little street in my awesome neighborhood, with one foot out my front door. I was halfheartedly making plans for the summer – signing …

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